I CANNOT understand my ever-so-conservative parents. -.-'' How does chillin' (merely talking) with Azri or my girlfriend(s) 'til midnight ever constitute to me being wild and uncontrollable already? Yes i have to admit, its almost everyday but i did not do anything stupid that might taint my own pride as well as my family's good name while i'm at it. At least, not to THAT extent yet. We were just merely talking 'cause i need it much prior to my overwhelming life nowadays, is it sooooo freaking hard to understand!?!?! Seriously. 0.o 

I did not ask them to wait and stay up for me every night, i did not ask them to keep worrying 'bout my whereabouts etc. Goodness gracious please, just let loose a 'lil. No wait, i mean A LOT. She literally blurted these exact same words right in front of my face 'bout a minute ago; "Kau, kalau nak umi baba mati cepat; buat hari-hari, teruskan jadi macam gini." What the HELL was she trying to say and where is the link!?!?! What, that i might be the cause of their death eventually!?!?! What the HELL did i do!?!?! That was such an insult and it hurts me so much when she said that but, what's my feelings to her anyways right? I was always the invisible one with a freaking smile on my face, even when i'm f*cking down with an aching heart! Little did they realise that its actually not me and my "attitude" that will cause them to die. Instead its their own ridiculous assumptions, imaginations and thoughts 'bout me already doing all those "filthy stuffs" (as they presume) which they simply cannot accept and abhors so much that'll kill them when i'm not even actually doing them, AT ALL. GOD! How more pathetic can they be? :(

May i stress upon this; i did not smoke (tried, though), i did not drink and get drunk while at it and i haven't club as yet for i don't even have the means to do all those now; $$$ issues. I was just merely chillin', talking thus far! Why is it sooooo damn, effing hard for them to believe and understand my freaking words!?!?! All i want for now is my time; my own personal time with my loved ones (besides family). Give it to me; give me the trust and freedom that i need without holding any grudges deep within. Kalau tak kan menyakitkan hati sendiri aje, betul tak betul? I'm 20 and i know how to take care of myself already. I don't mean any harm, seriously. Is it too damn hard to grant me all those? If it is i can understand 'cause i'm their daughter (a girl) afterall but still... comes another question; when is the right time then, ever!?!?!

Keep nagging in my ears 24/7 'bout these and wake up the monster in me, i'll make their most ultimate fears come true. Tengokkkkk aje. I don't give a f*ck anymore. Try me.
 

"Someday, someone would walk into your life and make you realise why it never worked out with anyone else.
And sometimes the person you want most, is the person you’re best without."

P/S: Credits to syazrella.

Sesungguhnya... pardon each and every single one of our not-so-presentable faces. HAHAHAHAHA. This picture was taken righttttt after our PE lesson; celebrated Miss Low's birthday in the midst of our POA class whereby Redzwan's body odour is definitely unforgettable! O-M-G seriously, i could vividly remember how he smells like then up 'til now. Ain't kidding. 0.o

Amongst all of the classes that i've been transferred into thus far prior to my odd subject combinations here in Millennia Institute, 08B8 turns out to be the best! I love all of the crrrrrazy people in it; making me feel so belonged ('cause face it, i'm crrrrrazy too. -.-''). Especially Miss Low, who never fails to give us words of encouragement and motivation despite us being ignorant towards it almost 'bout... 80% of the time? :) Nonetheless, we still do appreciate her constant "naggings" though. Honest! -__________-''

By the way, take a look at these pictures of Fiza-O; DJ RIA 89.7FM.

(Ignore Fauzie Laily, -.-'')

 

 

Referring to the acclaimed date in the picture above; 2014 already, who knew? HAHAHAHAHA.
Sighs, i got to fix my DigiCam now. -.-''

WARNING! beforehand; This post is highly opinionated so no offense to whomever it may concern, be it dead or alive. ;)

And yet again, i encountered a sympathetic woman; she's just another "Billie Jean", unfortunately. That is IF you know what i mean (strictly, no further elaborations needed). Seriously, why must women ALWAYS be the victimised one? I ain't no feminist but please, i've had it up 'til here (the limit's sky-high, believeeeee me so) with men's ridiculous, unnecessary yet ignorant vulnerabilities with regards to such an issue. Right from the very beginning, it takes two to play the game. If both chose and had hence agreed upon to venture the "promised pleasures" together initially; the correct thing to do is to mark their "vows", though unofficial, for each other and bear the unfortunate circumstances altogether to its very end (an offspring and thereafter, should there be one). Now, let us all be open-minded here. With reference to today's social context, its pretty obvious that the idea of sexual intercourse (be it pre/post-marital) has already become a norm indeed. Personally, i feel that it is NOT wrong to do it out of love but at the very least please... do it wisely. Logically, who'd ever want to risk a pregnancy? Nobody, and i mean NOBODY wants to experience parenthood at such a fragile age. There are many ways to prevent it, seriously. If you still want to practice casual sex and not put any unwanted pregnancies at stake, simple; adhere to 'em all! -.-''

Women... beauty alone is never enough. You've got to have the brains too which is ultimately essential especially with regards to making choices. Before you finally decide to give your all and everything up; analyse and judge even the intricate details of your partner thoroughly. Question their capabilities and ask yourself these; "Is he trustworthy/matured/responsible enough?", "Is he really 'the one' for me?", "How confident am i of his claim that he'll always be there to take excellent care of me through thick and thin?" etc. Believe me, it is not too difficult moreover impossible to tell. Intelligent women with a high IQ/EQ would know how to judge a man and be certain 'bout it. Don't ever be fooled/blinded by your desires alone and don't be too quick to jump into conclusions. Always remember that your mind's pretty influential in determining your consecutive actions too. So, think! And as a woman, it is ok to be brave in order to be deem as "skillful" in it. However, at such a young age, it is WISER and indeed never uncool to take precautionary measures like using contraceptives while on it. For prevention is better than cure and a women's pride is in their hands afterall. I strongly believes that a woman should not be stupid and stoop THAT low as to be permissible with simply anything that her partner asks for only prior to satisfaction purposes. Frankly speaking, that can wait 'til they're both mentally, emotionally and economically stable someday. Why's the rush anyways, true? -.-''

Men... on the other hand, should treat their women with respect 'cause you know they deserve it. If she's not ready for you to ejaculate inside; then respect it and just DON'T! Is that too hard!?!?! It's self-control, for goodness sake. Don't ever be selfish and think only 'bout yourself for in an intercourse, always remember that there's two lives involved; yours and hers. There's absolutely no such thing as coincidental in this case; totally unforgivable. Should anything unfortunate happen, bear 'em all together then. Never leave her alone. Marry her if you have the guts to 'cause afterall... you both agreed to have had intercourse out of "love" in the first place no? Then face it, don't run away cowardly and be the man you should/supposed to be. And stop giving me the thoughts that men are useless! 'Cause i honestly do not wish to have to live by with such an idea, seriously. Do you know how sad and devastating it is to think that way? Pfft.
 

And another thing i'd loveeeee to know is this; are these situations (unwanted pregnancies/abortions/offsprings/single-parenting etc) something to be proud of and encouraged? Personally, i beg to differ 'cause i honestly don't think so. :/ It should be dissuaded instead. In anyways, if you've ever experienced/been in such aforementioned situations above; continue to stay strong, move on and LEARN from it. Don't repeat the exact same mistakes again, pleaseeeee. Being a fool once is understandable enough but twice... it'll shows so much. *Shrugs.
 

Tell me if this is true;

Whatever you gave a woman, she'll make it greater. If you give her sperms, she'll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she'll give you home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. So, if you give her crap... be ready to receive tons of shit in return.

Seriously and frankly speaking, if i were a man, i'll uphold a lot of respect to women worldwide. Ain't kidding. And may i emphasise again; i am NOT a feminist. So, yeah. Credits to Duan Fadly by the way for the message. :)

And, i would loveeeee to share this too (i'm very random today so, pardon me);
Adapted from my Facebook A/C's inbox, just fyi. :)

This is ultimately classic. Haleem, Haleem... you'll never give up, won't you? Fyi, he was my ex-secondary schoolmate who never fails to hint on me since forever. For this, i admire you. I honestly do. 'Cause you never stop persevering despite knowing i'm THAT difficult to please. :)

P/S: Yesterday was unforgettable.
P/S/S: Today's yet another 4th and i'm missing him, undoubtedly. :'(

Alright, off to bathe for school now. Wish me tons of luck for my GP examination, y'all! <3

I'm having sore eyes now (a pretty bad one i supposed). :'( Should i or shouldn't i go to school? But i have to 'cause my Promo 2 examination is drawing oh so near and i cannot afford to lose out on relevant tips anymore. Alike what Zul (my favourite 'adik' in school) would always preach; FORCE OI, FORCE! True, i neeeeed the courage to FORCE myself through. -.-'' And it's funny how the idea of social reponsibility keeps questioning itself, especially with regards to school. Ah, the inevitable irony. (Picturing myself going to school with a pair of shades to cover up my sore eyes; OMG, ARGH! -_____-''). No! I am sooooo not going to do so. How!?!?!

 

It's the break of dawn and i'm feeling so low. My H2 Kesusasteraan homeworks (mostly essay outlines) are prone to negligence already. Seriously, who'd bother? This is partly the reason why i don't want to attend school today. :( But, is it fair? Just because of one subject, i risk the rest? Think Azimah, think!

Sometimes, i wonder. Since my name is NURAZIMAH; why is it, not even a single time in my life, i have someone calling me Nura? Huh, why? Wouldn't that be sweeeeeter? (Emphasising this to Nuriah). I'm sick and tired of being called Azi/Azimah/Gee/Zee etc. What's with the letter Z!?!?! Fyi, it's too bold for comfort now. PMS-ing much? Sighs. :/

I'm sick of everything; i'm sick of thinking 'bout him, i'm sick of worrying my 2009 away, i'm sick of being tied down with rules and regulations everywhere etc... When will all these eventually come to an end? Allah, pretty please spare me some mercy. Like i've mentioned countless times before, i ain't any Superhuman (laughing my ass off at Batman Suparman; Nuriah, you and i both know). *Winks. :)

It's times like these that i need my Batman Suparman (preferably a DKK), like seriously; come dear, rescue me! -.-'' HAHAHAHAHA!

 

Oh wells... 0.o

My 2009 sucks to the core, period. It took me by surprise and kind of came on a 'lil too strong for me 'cause my life journey's been pretty much smooth sailing for 'bout 18.5 years thus far. But, i proudly took 'em all as a challenge; embrace and eventually kill 'em to feel the sense of satisfaction that i deserve eventually. Hereby, dare i say... bring it on (to Allah)! But, kindly do spare me a teeny-weeny bit of mercy still for i ain't a Superhuman afterall. I don't want to be dead emotionally while i'm still breathing. :S

There is still so much to do in such short notice! This coming Friday's the start of my Promo 2 examination but, my homeworks keep on piling up like nobody's business. Goodness gracious please, i beg the teachers to be more understanding. And seriously, i mean MORE understanding. What are they, killing us? Via uber slow and painful death that is. I'm losing my sanity soon should i not be too careful; ain't kidding.

But, i know i'm strong enough. Aja-aja fighting! -.-''

On a brighter note, my computer had been reformatted yesterday prior to uncontrollable virus attacks lately. FINALLY, it's running fast and efficient again. So i lost all of my pictures, songs, files etc (and i mean ALL) but hey...  That don't matter 'cause i could FINALLY download the latest version of Internet Explorer, Mozilla Firefox and Windows Live Messenger without any annoying disruptions anymore. Believe me, i've been trying to do so for months. Now, i'm such a happy goober. I added iMac-alike docks on my desktop as well etc; tell me, why wouldn't i? 

By the way, Selamat Berpuasa to all Muslims out there. Segala amalan yang ingin dicapai merupakan tanggungjawab sendiri iyeeeee. I don't feel the Raya vibe though. Why oh, why? Sighs, e-v-e-r-y year... -.-''